- Why spend so much on lunches out, and takeaway?
- Why shopping for just a few days at a time, when it clearly costs more?
- Why didn’t you take those clothes back, they don’t even fit you?
- Why didn’t you deal with this when it wasn’t a big deal?
- You could have ordered those months ago?
- All you needed to do was call and let them know you weren’t coming?
- If you just plan out your meals, you can shop cheaply you know!
It goes on and on and on. I used to think…
“God I am such a shit adult, mother, employee, director, partner, human. Everyone around me deserves so much better. I fuck everything up and it costs us so much money.”
“Why can’t I just do what everyone else does?”
“Why can’t I just do what everyone else does?”
Now I know that I can’t. It is not my fault that my brain CANNOT do things that way.
Do I stop trying? NO.
Am I now kinder to myself when I fuck things up? Mostly. Am I accepting that this is how I am wired and it costing a load of money sucks but it just is what it is. Yes.
The guilt I feel to those around me that this impacts is real and the actual financial cost, is high.
Do I stop trying? NO.
Am I now kinder to myself when I fuck things up? Mostly. Am I accepting that this is how I am wired and it costing a load of money sucks but it just is what it is. Yes.
The guilt I feel to those around me that this impacts is real and the actual financial cost, is high.